March, 17, one in the morning.
Two months and a half have passed since my not-so-pleasant Christmas Holidays full of drama and only now I feel like the (not so) new year can finally begin. 2016, here I come! Ha!
While I will probably never be able to fully grasp what exactly happened to me over the past couple of weeks and months, I think it is probably fair to say I experienced something which is commonly described as a burnout. A meltdown. A mental breakdown. Or maybe I was followed around by a black dog. Whatever you want to call it.
January was pitch black. I cried my eyeballs out. Several times. On a daily basis. I felt like I hit a brick wall. Without a safety helmet. At full speed.
I was incredibly lucky to have a few loyal supporters at my side who pulled me through. I was equally heartbroken to find that some, whom I thought were amongst the fan club, effectively applied the cold shoulder technique. Auch.
I took shelter in silence.
Back in the Saddle Again
So what’s next? I am turning over a leaf and I am staring at a blank new page. I am giving myself a clean slate and I am allowing myself to start over again. And I mean that quite literally.
I am going to re-invent myself. From head to toes, from the inside out. And you, my beloved reader, are going to be my witness. Before you think this blog is going to turn into a horrendous TOTAL MAKE OVER phenomenon of the unsavory kind (yes, I am thinking Hotter than Your Daughter), you can rest easy. It is not. But there are so many ways in which I want to change and become a better person (notice how cheesy it sounds!) and I want you to hold me accountable for it.
So watch this space peeps, cause this kid is back on the block.